Understanding Who am I?

In continuation to my last post of who am I? I have come to realise my true self and my nature. My purpose and my goal.

How did I become so clear in my thoughts and my actions?

There is a way for all of us to understand who we are and why are we here on earth. What was the mission we chose to take when we took birth in the wombs of our mothers. What is the message we are to deliver to the world?

It took me a few years, but I think I managed to get an understanding my simple forms of knowledge and practice being put together and churning out the fog in my head about myself. Also, with a lot of divine help and guidance there was clarity in what I was supposed to do.

I would like to share with you my experience of what I went through to reach the state in which I am:

First Step (Peter Pointer): Change your surroundings
You can never be different unless you have a new place to be in. If the house/ apartment/ flat that you live in has been your place of residence for a long time. You may have to think of moving away from the place. Due to our energy being spoilt in the place we need to move away from the place in order to start the cleansing. As an example: How is the water in a swimming pool filtered. It is sucked away from the main pool, into a filtration system and then pumped back all clean into the pool. The process helps keep the impurities away from the pool and also cleans the pool.

In the same process, we have to detach our selves from the area where we were living with bad energy. Rejuvenate ourselves and when we have strengthened our bodies and our soul, we may make a choice of going back to the same place again to continue with our new found self.

Second Step (Middle Finger): Let go of your status
I don't think i really understood this statement till I actually understood it. To let go of ones status is to let go of all that you do without having the need to sneak back at it ever again. I let go of my status as a smoker and drinker in January 2014. Since then, I have not looked back or uttered a request to have a smoke or drink. It was my mind that helped me change my ways and my status. I am now a non-smoker and dont have any alcohol. Its been 9 months and counting.

Third Step (Ring Finger): Choose new associations.
This is the most difficult of all. We have had friends all our lives and we chose to have them as a part of our lives. In the process we did not know who are the vampires and who are the nightingales. There was no clarity of who is who and how we could understand if the association was a good or bad one.

While cleansing ourselves, we need to associate ourselves with new people. People who will not hold us for our past and make judgement based on our past actions. We need to be associated with people who will make a choice with our present. The same like minded people who are cleansed or undergoing the process of cleansing. This will help us better in our process of cleansing. How? When we are associated with the same thinking people, our confidence of our self and our belief of self increases. The sense of belonging and being able to make a difference rises. We feel whole again.

Forth Step (Little finger/ Twinky): Enjoy your life
Be careful of your finances, there is no friend in the world who would willingly give up their finances for you. You are the controller of your choice. Enjoy life within the means of your ability. If you don't have the finances to buy a product or service of your liking, at the moment. Then forsake it till you get to arrange for it. Do not get trapped by the greed or indulgence in credit card swiping. Learn from your mistakes of the past and make it a present occurrence.

Fifth Step (Thumb): If not of the steps above make any sense, go back to step one and start again. You have missed out something which still needs attention.

These 5 steps can be easily remembered in the fingers of your hand. Keep your understanding of yourself with you and look forward to keep improving yourself without any prejudice to yourself. There is a very little anyone can do for you if You don't want to do anything for yourself.

Past Present Future

A reason for our actions and our behaviours. Is this a question that ever pops in our minds?

We are groomed to be the mechanics in pointing fingers at everyone else but ourselves in blaming or sharing the reason for bad experiences in our lives. We ask god for answers, we ask friends or foes to be forgiven for their actions. At any time do we ask ourselves what is the reason or the root of the occurrences in our lives?

A philosophy on mankind prevailes, we are only what we think we are. There is no god, no creator, no life after death. We are just molecules of our own beliefs and there is no other creation.

To the said thought process, I have only one question to ask. How did we evolve from a molecule to a full grown human being? There are very few doctors or wise scientists or even google who have shared any answers that are worth recommending or reasonable.

The questions of the existence of a molecule are also slowly evolving. Where a particle in a molecule is being termed as, "The God Particle". Wonder where did come into a scientific particle?

I am yet to find a answer to what is the root of all sufferings in the world?

There are questions that have answers and problems that have solutions, it is up to the seeker to find the answer and interpret it in the best way possible. Is religion the cause of grief? Is envy the root of crime? Is greed the start of selfishness? Is the need of self financial success the need to make others poor?

So many questions that make our lives tense and create a sense of bewilderment to our existence. Why?

That's all the remains at the end, why? We walk without seeing where we are going. The path that is directed with hate, envy, greed, sloth, anger, lust and pride. If we were only able to relieve ourselves of this path and seek a clear and viable path. The opportunity for grief would not exist and there would not be a day of sadness in the life of the individual.

I have not been able to answer the question yet. Maybe you could help see the light. I have come across a theory of "Karma". To explain it simply, the seeds you sow are the fruits you reap. Just like a plant takes time to grow, the fruits of redemption or curse come at its own time. We are not aware of the happenings but nature and divine happenings are controlling our lives everyday. This is something one has to experience to be a part of the same thinking process.

Being in the karmic cycle, one understands the root of suffering in the world. Why would I be going through a bad phase when all of the world is having a good time? or are they really enjoying?

Karma has a history of your past and current lives, the seeds that you have sown have grown. If the seeds were planted in good soil, the fruits are cherished. If they were planted in bad soil, the fruits are definitely not liked or enjoyed. We then have to undergo a process of cleansing, a way to better the wrongs we have done and improve our life. The unfortunate part here is that religion teaches us to follow rituals and chants. To make ourselves beggars of mercy. But that is not what is to be done.

All we need to do, is to forget the past and create a happy present without any thought of the future. What this means is, to let go of our burdens and sins which we have created for ourselves and make way for a better today. While we create a happier today, our past slowly becomes a better memory adding to the good Karma in our lives.

About forgetting the thought of the future, without thinking about the circumstance, we do good deeds everyday. This leads to good karma added to our kitty to weigh out the bad karma we had sown in our past. The equation then becomes fairly simple, when we weigh our good deeds over our bad deeds, our present and our future suddenly shapes out better than we expect without the past influencing the fruits of our labour.

There was no need to follow rituals or chants, just the humble action in doing good without considering the circumstance of what the outcome will be. Thereby, giving the universe the opportunity to gift us with divine abundance.

To have, To Receive and To Get

In a day and age of having the best for yourself is a norm. People try different means and methods to have a get rich quick fix. We forget to live our lives in the quest to get rich and show our friends and family. To have the materialistic gains is what we have aimed our destiny.

I was made to believe the materialistic way of life is the place for all to be until I met Saraswati. She is a regular person without any hopes of making it big in the world with a simple understanding of life and the hurdles she faces.

I had to go to the outskirts of Mumbai on work and was waiting at a tea stall for the workers to come. While I was waiting, a lady came with a basket on her head and a baby in her arms. She asked the tea stall lady to help her get the basket down and lay it on the ground.

She went ahead to arrange the basket laden with toys and women's accessories. She was preparing herself sell her goods in the village near by. I was sitting and observing her as she did her work.

As she was getting her basket ready, her daughter, 1 year 5 months young, lay on her lap and slept soundly. She kept to her work of readying the basket and also caring for her daughter. It was a sight to see, how she was making an effort to earn her livelihood. I was only amazed at the courage this lady was showing in the world of material craze with the simple products she kept in her basket to sell.

I approached her and asked her why she was doing so much to make a living. She could have easily stood on the streets like a beggar and made a lot more money. She looked at me with a smile and said, "Sahab, God has gifted me with everything I need to earn my living, why should I beg for my living?" I was shocked and awed by her courage. Her answer had made a dent in my belief that the world is getting worse by the day and humanity is a dying phenomenon. Her ability to live life without the need to have the abundance of money but to have the abundance of time with her child and family was truly mind changing.

Saraswati said, she works 5 hours every day except sunday, when her husband would get an off from work and the time would be spent with family on that day. She carries her baby everywhere she goes and does all the work to ensure her child gets a decent education, something she was not allowed to do since she was a girl. Saraswati was the youngest of three siblings and the only girl. Her brothers were educated and worked in the city, where as she was not sent to school beyond class 8th as her father didn't think it was a worthwhile investment.

Saraswati was not in the shadow of being dejected of depressed with the treatment meted out to her because of her sex. Her ability to stand up and earn her living was proof in itself, to show her strength to fight the world around her in a subtle but defined manner. She was a deity in her actions.

I listened with an open mouth and a head held high to her life and her living. Her mother in law and family were very strict and didnt allow her to move out too often. She had to make them known that she wanted to do it for her and her child's happiness. She said she was blessed with an understanding husband who supported her in her wants and needs of being independent.

I was truly blessed to be within the aura of such a person in my lifetime. A person who showcased strength and courage when the world around her was only trying to pull her down. May the world be blessed for having a person like Saraswati to have, to receive and to get what we deserve and not what we want.