Amore Forever

There are memories of our lives which have got rusty and some of those memories include the times when we either had a deep crush or maybe fell in love for the first time and then life had a different reason for us to continue and be with someone else maybe. But those past memories that still linger in our thoughts and sometimes some occurence in the present triggers those memories of the past and brings a smile without any regrets. Can you remember them?

Remember the time when you had that first crush, more times than none its when you stepped into school for the first time and would have been between the 1st and 4th class/standard/grade. The time when the look of her would make your heart beat like a speeding train. Her one smile would make you go into a dream of your own. Her presence would light up your day, her voice would make you the feel a renewed energy but the times were different and we were not in a position to express our love to her. She was completely obsolete to the fact that you were there and existent for the so called love you had for her. Your friends would say that girls are not the friends you should be having but your heart wanted to go the other way and for some reason she never came to be in your life. And then life went to another phase, the crushes season started to fade out and there was no one like her to move you the way she did for sometime.

Then came your first LOVE, oh that feeling. Thats it, She is it! The thoughts of being with her and times shared with her. Holding her hand and walking for hours. Speaking on the phone till the wee hours of morning, never knowing what you spoke through the night but it was just a conversation that would make you feel satisfied. Her voice was enough to keep you alive. The small picture of her smile that would remain in your purse which had less money and more unwanted papers to make it look big. The mind was engrossed into a dream of love and enchantment, the first few months are spent with each others smiles, the movies, walks in the parks, bike rides/ drives in the evenings, coffee shop rendezvous all seemed like time was flying by and the need of more time to spend with each other. Then on parting you would reach home and like a super spy hide from your parents, call her and speak to her. And start speaking again till the time the eyes do not wish the night away. Sleep is the last thing on your mind, food doesnt taste the same without her by your side. The morning is lifted with the joy that you will be spending another day with her and she will be by yourside in college cuddled by yourside. Then comes the first time your lips touched hers and the shock was felt till the bottom of your spine but you didnt want her to know how much of feeling was there in you as you were the man. But your smile told her a different story and she reciprocated the same affection to you. The warmth of her hand on yours and the kiss made the reasons for everything complete. She was it!

The next step to completing a love saga is to tie the knot and the grave step of speaking to the parents and getting their consent or blessings in our world so that the love is turned to official marriage. Now not everyone's first love ends up with the one that they thought they were destined to be with. Our society has its own rules and the logic of each individual is quite different for everyone. I got to witness the break up of many individuals that had a story of depression and sadness but this didnt last long for them as there is always as silver lining in a dark cloud, right!

So starts another love story and it is again one of happiness and the love is blossoming in the mind with a renewed interest. Thats it, she is the one! You met her either in your work place or through some introduction at a party of a common friend or you tried to pick her up at a party and she was impressed by your line. You both share a common interest that makes you like things and do things which are common to each other. And since you are in the same work place the communication is so much more often and there is so much time shared with each other. You get to know her flaws and strengths, her flaws are pushed under the rug and you can only see her strengths. Oh the love, oh the romance! Its beautiful. She gets you to the top of the world and there is no space for a new person in your life. Your friends take second stage, their calls are always answered with excuses that you have to spend time with her or that she doesnt like you drinking and smoking so you have decided to quit. But when you are not with her all the excuses are forgotten and the smokes and drinks are enjoyed without her knowledge but in your fulfillment.

The maturity of age, relation, etc. brings us to the old hurdle of taking this relation to the next step, MARRIAGE. Parents are yet again involved in the process but this time the mind is strong to get them convinced into agreeing to this relation. You put your foot down and make them agree to your will or you walk out of the house. Now here there are different versions. Guy walks out of the house and gets married to the girl or Guy and girl walk out of their respective houses and get married in the court with the help of some of their friends or girl walks out of the house and gets married to the guy or both the sides agree to relation and there is a rocking party where we all are invited to share in the celebrations and ofcourse get drunk!

Now starts the next phase of the relation which most of the movies in our country do not show case. The part where the love starts to die and reality begins to kick in, the part which has logic and reasoning written all over, the same logic and reasoning that failed to exist when the love was blossoming in the head when the world was obsolete to you in her presence and vice-versa. Thats where the love suddenly vanishes and reality hits us. Shit! I got married!